Another day goes by....

today when i woke up...i felt like i'd woke up in the wrong side of my bed....
i had a very bad feeling for it....
it's been almost 4 months that i had sumone to wake me up in the morning...
getting up alone today was kinda hard...i miss his blurry voice in the morning when he just woke up...
i miss the way how he wake me up....
n when i look back...i knew that i've not really appreciated that.....
after all...who will know that they'll miss something if they haven't lost any of that...
anyway trying to be strong....i tried not to cry...but unfortunately...i did....
being a normal human being...although i'll look normal in front of my friends...
being back the happy cheerful girl in front of them...it's kinda tough....
deep inside my heart...i'm really hurt and sad...it's like my heart is broken into many small pieces...
and there is nothing that can stick them back together....
after all....i'm not really open to ppl...not even the closed one....
i don't really like to tell ppl bout my feelings...just like to keep it deep inside myself...
but for this time...i'm not really sure that i can take it...
so i was wondering y not confess my feelings by blogging....
through this i do not have to face anyone...just typing out all my feelings....
by this way.....i can let my problems out n ppl will know bout it too...
this is d part i like the most....i can let ppl to know bout my feelings without telling them directly...
ok....anyway...i wan to talk something that i did today too...
it's not really nice to talk bout my relationship all the way rite...
alrite...so today i went to college as usual...
during my break time...esther n heng li joined geok leng n me...
and after my college...i meet up with heng li again but this time included shawn...
esther joined us after that...
oh ya....n i'm so proud to say that i'd won heng li in pool....
he might give me some chance to win....but i'm still proud of it....
from not knowing how to hold the stick to entering those pool balls....
i'm really proud of it...however, without all those so called 'TEACHERS' of mine....
i wouldn't make it...
alrite....it's kinda late now n my eyes r kinda heavy too...
i just hope that i'll feel much better tomorrow too....
that i can really accept the lost of him....
just wish me luck guys....n pray for me too....
i really do not wish to suffer for this incident...
i'm sick n tired of it....